Unprecedented behaviors
I haven’t said anything for more than a month, which is a significant milestone. A milestone for what, I have no clue, but this is big. Yes, interesting things have happened that I would have liked to write about, but I didn’t.
Why should I? I don’t owe it to anyone. Though, I have explicitly stated in the past that this journal is more for me than anyone else. I guess that just means nothing worth remembering has occurred for the past month.
I’m positive this happens to everyone: you wake up and you don’t want to face the day, no matter what good things may come of it, and bad things you will avoid. I know that, for the most part, we all think this every morning, but eventually we come to our senses and drag our asses out of bed by way if sheer willpower, the aggravated yells of a parent telling you to get up, the alarm clock that startles you into awareness - whatever the case you’re up and that’s that.
As far as I can tell, there’s no explanation, but Friday morning I woke up and just thought “ja35ujy3.” My poor father thought something was wrong with me when I told him that I wasn’t going to go to school, and I feel bad that I made him worry like that. Keep in mind this is entirely out of the norm for me - I understand that a lot of people skip school all the time. But it’s not as if I skipped school to do just relax. All I ended up doing was literally studying for ten hours straight…I started working at 6:30 in the morning while eating a bowl of cereal, forgot to eat lunch and just stayed busy with study guides, SAT words, computer science labs until finally, around 4:00 or 4:30, I took a break.
Is this considered unusual or typical among my peers? I’m sorry, but I don’t know how people my age usually act.
“I’m not going to deal with this shit.”